I have been searching for a spiritual teacher for many years. When I met someone, I thought I had found the one I have been looking for in this life. Now I felt that this teacher, who I deeply loved and trusted, intentionally or unintentionally lied to me for many years. I am deeply disappointed at everything. I can’t accept and forgive all of this. It has been bothering me for quite a while. It’s difficult for me to believe anything now. What is wrong with me? Thank you!
It is not something that is wrong with you. It is very disappointing that some people who are actually still students, present themselves as teachers. But do not worry. Learning comes in many forms. You learned something very valuable. So never stop. Move forward, forward, always forward. Water may, for a while, get sidetracked as it flows from the mountain top on its journey back to the ocean, but return it will. You will return home and now, with greater discernment, the path will be more clear, more direct, more rapid.